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  1. Zohmbiebuilds

    Zohmbiebuilds Silver Contributor Member For 2 Years

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    Hey guys, I have been lurking but I wanted to update my VU homies. I was sharing a room with a person and that situation was getting worse by the day a few months ago so I bit the bullet and got into a housing program.

    I've come so far from the beginning when I signed up here to now but it's been hard and a battle. As some of you know I am a recovering addict and October 12th I will celebrate by 3rd birthday in recovery, and I'm freaking excited for that.

    I haven't fallen off the ship, I've just been extremely busy. I buried one of my best friends Brian, my buddy Chris, my buddy Mike, my friend Brittany to overdose's. I buried my good friend Anthony from kidney failure, that man inspired me in so many ways... And September 11th I buried my ex girlfriend and fiance from an overdose. That one really hurt. I knew she wasn't sober and she kept calling me and wanted to hang out, but I can't risk my sobriety. Well, as it turns out I found out they found her dead in her car in Cincinnati.

    I feel terrible that she overdosed and to some extent I feel like if I was there she wouldn't have overdosed. She overdosed 4 septate times in one day and has probably overdosed well over 40 times. She couldn't handle ******. But I was always there to rescue her. I never let her out of my site because I knew her. Well, she came back in town and I had a feeling she was not being honest about being in recovery, she said she still smokes weed and I just don't want to be around drugs, so I put her off.

    I was doing counseling but I realized that this is the road people with addictive tendencies go down with drugs and alcohol and that I truly am one of the luckiest guys in the world to cling on to recovery. I have been sober for a while now and realize that very few people stay sober. It's sad, but it's just the way it is. I have to count my blessings not my downfalls.

    Anyway, I just had to get that out. I miss her and all my friends I've buried this year and they all had something to do with me staying Sober weather they knew it or not.

    If anyone here is struggling please feel free to message me. I know what it's like and I know sometimes just having someone to talk to helps.

    Thank you guys. Here's to another year

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  2. CJ-3

    CJ-3 Bronze Contributor Member For 2 Years

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    Congratulations on your recovery. We may not know eachother but I have family in recovery as well.

    I'm extremely proud of you!
     
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  3. MrMeowgi

    MrMeowgi The Vapin' Drummer Staff Member Senior Moderator VU Donator Diamond Contributor Member For 4 Years

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    Hey man glad to see you're still around. Congrats on the year's sober.
     
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  4. jwill

    jwill The Great King of Nothing VU Vendor VU Donator Platinum Contributor Member For 1 Year VU Challenge Team VU SWAT Reddit Exile

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    Congrats on the sobriety dude and always remember that you can only be responsible for what you do. Its cliche as hell but the folks in and around your life have to choose their own path. Stay at it.
     
  5. SteveS45

    SteveS45 Diamond Contributor Member For 3 Years ECF Refugee

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    Sorry for your losses it is hard to lose friends at young ages. I recently heard a Woman I grew up with passed away but that was Cancer. I found out after the wake and Funeral which was kind of a shitty feeling because I was brought up to pay last respects.

    But remember what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and life goes on for those who want to live. Good Luck
     
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  6. Belladona

    Belladona Gold Contributor ECF Refugee

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    You don’t know me, but I’m truly sorry for your losses.

    I am glad you found recovery and are celebrating another anniversary sober!

    Keep going strong love!

    :hug:
     
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  7. Letitia9

    Letitia9 Therion/Nano Junkie VU Donator Platinum Contributor Member For 2 Years VU Challenge Team

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    Congratulations and condolences.
     
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  8. ChainVapeS

    ChainVapeS Silver Contributor Member For 2 Years

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    My heart goes out to you with all the loss you have gone thru. I am glad to hear you are still kicking, and haven't fallen off the wagon.
    Congrats on 3 years! And I hope your road gets smoother from here on.
    Glad to see a post from you!

    Sent from my SM-N950U using Tapatalk
     
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  9. hellcatrydr

    hellcatrydr Gold Contributor Member For 2 Years

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    Congrats on your 3 years clean ZB. That took balls. Never stop man.

    Shark Vape
     
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  10. Zohmbiebuilds

    Zohmbiebuilds Silver Contributor Member For 2 Years

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    Hey you guys I really appreciate the positivity you sent my way. That's really cool. Yeah, I can only be responsible for myself that's definitely true.

    I pulled myself out of counseling because it was making me even more depressed. I can deal with it. It just kind of got to me because it's been an absurd amount of people.

    You guys really made my day to see all the love I got. Thank you so much

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  11. nadalama

    nadalama Senior Moderator Staff Member Senior Moderator VU Donator Gold Contributor Member For 1 Year

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    My son has been through this. He has seven years clean and I can't even remember the number of friends he has lost during that time. It's tragic that you really cannot help them, but it's true. I'm so sorry for your losses, but so happy to hear that you are embracing your sobriety. Wishing you the very best going forward.
     
  12. gopher_byrd

    gopher_byrd Cranky Old Fart VU Donator Gold Contributor ECF Refugee Member For 5 Years

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    Condolences for the loss of your friends. But here is the most important, CONGRATULATIONS on your 3 years sober! I missed seeing you here and watching your progression in building coils.
     
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  13. lordmage

    lordmage Senior Moderator Staff Member Senior Moderator VU Donator Gold Contributor ECF Refugee Member For 5 Years

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    Keep up the Fight and gratz on your success to date.
     
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