Hey guys, I have been lurking but I wanted to update my VU homies. I was sharing a room with a person and that situation was getting worse by the day a few months ago so I bit the bullet and got into a housing program.
I've come so far from the beginning when I signed up here to now but it's been hard and a battle. As some of you know I am a recovering addict and October 12th I will celebrate by 3rd birthday in recovery, and I'm freaking excited for that.
I haven't fallen off the ship, I've just been extremely busy. I buried one of my best friends Brian, my buddy Chris, my buddy Mike, my friend Brittany to overdose's. I buried my good friend Anthony from kidney failure, that man inspired me in so many ways... And September 11th I buried my ex girlfriend and fiance from an overdose. That one really hurt. I knew she wasn't sober and she kept calling me and wanted to hang out, but I can't risk my sobriety. Well, as it turns out I found out they found her dead in her car in Cincinnati.
I feel terrible that she overdosed and to some extent I feel like if I was there she wouldn't have overdosed. She overdosed 4 septate times in one day and has probably overdosed well over 40 times. She couldn't handle ******. But I was always there to rescue her. I never let her out of my site because I knew her. Well, she came back in town and I had a feeling she was not being honest about being in recovery, she said she still smokes and I just don't want to be around drugs, so I put her off.
I was doing counseling but I realized that this is the road people with addictive tendencies go down with drugs and alcohol and that I truly am one of the luckiest guys in the world to cling on to recovery. I have been sober for a while now and realize that very few people stay sober. It's sad, but it's just the way it is. I have to count my blessings not my downfalls.
Anyway, I just had to get that out. I miss her and all my friends I've buried this year and they all had something to do with me staying Sober weather they knew it or not.
If anyone here is struggling please feel free to message me. I know what it's like and I know sometimes just having someone to talk to helps.
Thank you guys. Here's to another year
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I've come so far from the beginning when I signed up here to now but it's been hard and a battle. As some of you know I am a recovering addict and October 12th I will celebrate by 3rd birthday in recovery, and I'm freaking excited for that.
I haven't fallen off the ship, I've just been extremely busy. I buried one of my best friends Brian, my buddy Chris, my buddy Mike, my friend Brittany to overdose's. I buried my good friend Anthony from kidney failure, that man inspired me in so many ways... And September 11th I buried my ex girlfriend and fiance from an overdose. That one really hurt. I knew she wasn't sober and she kept calling me and wanted to hang out, but I can't risk my sobriety. Well, as it turns out I found out they found her dead in her car in Cincinnati.
I feel terrible that she overdosed and to some extent I feel like if I was there she wouldn't have overdosed. She overdosed 4 septate times in one day and has probably overdosed well over 40 times. She couldn't handle ******. But I was always there to rescue her. I never let her out of my site because I knew her. Well, she came back in town and I had a feeling she was not being honest about being in recovery, she said she still smokes and I just don't want to be around drugs, so I put her off.
I was doing counseling but I realized that this is the road people with addictive tendencies go down with drugs and alcohol and that I truly am one of the luckiest guys in the world to cling on to recovery. I have been sober for a while now and realize that very few people stay sober. It's sad, but it's just the way it is. I have to count my blessings not my downfalls.
Anyway, I just had to get that out. I miss her and all my friends I've buried this year and they all had something to do with me staying Sober weather they knew it or not.
If anyone here is struggling please feel free to message me. I know what it's like and I know sometimes just having someone to talk to helps.
Thank you guys. Here's to another year
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