Only another 15 hours until 2 days are done.
And I am going to bed after I take my medication.
Quit watching the clock on how long you've gone without. That will only be a reminder and give power to what you're without. Your goal is to not even notice you are without whatever.
At times that can be difficult, I understand. Then, I've faced a life without a great deal of stuff. Usually, people can enjoy the scent of a lover. Not me, not ever.
Got to ask myself if I've never had, how can I miss it? I do not. I think it might be nice to experience. My thinking a thing does not always make it so. I quit reminding myself of it, go on and live life.
No point moping over it. Life has never come contractually obligated to be fair, never will. So what? It's the same for us all. I know you furrow a hard row. Stop and consider others may as well, or even have it worse.
... Sorry if I'm sounding too harsh. Trying to help you get past what I see as a mistake.