And what do you wonder, I wonder?
I find difficulty in hating people, or being jealous of them. I try to avoid comparing myself to anyone. That lets me stay beyond compare. This is my way of finding what is talked about as the narrow path. As I joked/stated before I'm a gray Jedi, a walker between light and dark realizing both are needed to make a whole. Hate and jealousy get in the way of that. So, I try doing without them as much as I can. Is it always easy? No. Do I struggle? Yes. I think we all do and I'm no better or worse than anyone. I just know my path, even if I don't know where it leads.
Simple and easy response for you? Pass me over a cup of hot tea or coffee. I'm passing through s'all, be no need of worry about me.
Matter of fact, worst I might do is teach someone in dire straits to fish, farm, forage, survive, live. Then, I'm on my way fading into the background again having washed the cup you served me in. I live and let live.