Hi All, this looks like a welcoming community and I humbly beg for your advice.
I do see that there is a thread already titled "What is the best for me starting?" But it's 6 years old and I'm sure the market has changed so....
I'm fairly light smoker of about 25 years, I go through about a pack and a half per week, tops. Can often stretch a pack to a full week or more. I know, I know, this is absolutely nothing compared to a lot of people. But it's more
than I want and I just want to be done with it. I'm concerned about my health, both mentally and physically. I don't smoke around my family, friends, co-workers, or anyone I know because I don't need the judgement (I have enough insecurities as it is) and I know it smells fucking horrible. I'm not even a big fan of it myself anymore.
Despite my relatively low intake, I still have problems quitting. About half the time I try to quit, I fall into the "just one more pack and then I'll be done" loop of self-treachery. The other half of the time, I manage to quit
with some degree of success. The whole first week after quitting is absolutely brutal. We're talking anger, depression, insomnia, lack of focus, you get it. In a nutshell, I'm a real bastard to be and be around. My family deserves better. It's possible that even I deserve better. But when I manage to power through that, I'm generally fine for a few weeks until something negative happens in my life and then I'm back to square one. I have two kids, a full-time job, a recently deceased father, and I'm trying to start a side hustle on top of it all and I can't afford to have entire weeks of my life wasted anymore. Even if I never quit cigs completely, I'll cry like a grown-ass man if I manage to find a workable substitute for the other 95% of the time.
So! I think it's time to start investigating. Here is where I could use some advice. Instead of trying to make a boring story out of it, here are the simple facts as they stand:

I do see that there is a thread already titled "What is the best for me starting?" But it's 6 years old and I'm sure the market has changed so....
I'm fairly light smoker of about 25 years, I go through about a pack and a half per week, tops. Can often stretch a pack to a full week or more. I know, I know, this is absolutely nothing compared to a lot of people. But it's more
than I want and I just want to be done with it. I'm concerned about my health, both mentally and physically. I don't smoke around my family, friends, co-workers, or anyone I know because I don't need the judgement (I have enough insecurities as it is) and I know it smells fucking horrible. I'm not even a big fan of it myself anymore.
Despite my relatively low intake, I still have problems quitting. About half the time I try to quit, I fall into the "just one more pack and then I'll be done" loop of self-treachery. The other half of the time, I manage to quit
with some degree of success. The whole first week after quitting is absolutely brutal. We're talking anger, depression, insomnia, lack of focus, you get it. In a nutshell, I'm a real bastard to be and be around. My family deserves better. It's possible that even I deserve better. But when I manage to power through that, I'm generally fine for a few weeks until something negative happens in my life and then I'm back to square one. I have two kids, a full-time job, a recently deceased father, and I'm trying to start a side hustle on top of it all and I can't afford to have entire weeks of my life wasted anymore. Even if I never quit cigs completely, I'll cry like a grown-ass man if I manage to find a workable substitute for the other 95% of the time.
So! I think it's time to start investigating. Here is where I could use some advice. Instead of trying to make a boring story out of it, here are the simple facts as they stand:
- I'm a geek who knows electronics fairly well but I don't understand most of the terminology around vaping. WTF is a mod or a squonk even? I dunno! It feels like an area that is a Serious Hobby for most of the people who talk about it online. I have more than enough hobbies and right now I can't afford to spend weeks on researching the field. I just know I need some help to help get my life back on an upward trajectory. Point me in the right direction, and I'll probably figure things out as I go along.
- I tried a mint-flavored BLU e-cig but the whole experience was extremely underwhelming. It didn't last long, didn't satisfy, didn't seem to do much of anything except irritate the back of my throat which even cigs don't (usually) do. Instead of spending the $8, I should have just taken apart a bic pen and smeared some York Peppermint Patty around the inside and taken a few drags off that instead.
- Flavor and body-wise, I'm hoping that there's something that approximates a menthol light cig. Legitimately don't know if this is even possible. I do know that there is an insane variety of flavors out there but 99% of them don't sound appealing. I've been eating keto for about 8 years and sweets do nothing for me anymore.
- Cost is a consideration. Can vaping be less expensive than smoking? The branded products they sell at gas stations seem to be high-priced and given my experience with the BLU, I don't want to blow like $50 on something I'm going to hate.
- There are a couple of vape shops in town, I think. Are local shops sometimes worthwhile or should I focus my efforts at buying online?
- Re: buying online. This doesn't seem to be the kind of thing that Amazon carries and I know not to buy this stuff off random ebay listings from China. (Unless it's a really good deal, amirite?!) What are the reputable, trusted Internet retailers in this space? With reviews and honest descriptions? What brands of devices should I be looking at?
- Not even remotely interested in getting high on any of this, just the nicotine plz.
- Whatever I buy, I'd like to be discreet to purchase, store, and carry. Don't need my wife seeing a box marked "E-CIG VAPE SUPPLIES INSIDE" nor my kids stumbling across any of this. The one and only nice thing about the BLU is that it was the size, shape, and color of a pen and could be carried or hidden just about anywhere. Most of the vaping devices I see are bloody enormous and definitely would be visible in a pair of jeans, if they would even fit.