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Thats a great JfT... Im totally relating with that, with the winter coming to an end finally. Ive been stuck indoors. Now that spring time is here, Im feeling a good positive change in the air...time to stretch them legs a bit...
Same here.
I let work, family obligations and just plain daily life push me into ruts and it's usually my recovery that suffers.
When meeting attendance drops, when working with my sponsor gets pushed aside, when helping others takes a backseat to the hustle and bustle of a busy day, I feel it. My attitude is bad. My temper returns. I become intolerant and I don't feel as spiritually 'connected'.
The cure?
Do the things I keep telling myself there isn't time for.
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@ghost62, yeah, same is true for me to. Ive been spinning my wheels the last few weeks. Was goin to only 1 or 2 meetings, stopped calling people etc...then I was asked to speak at a rehab this past Tuesday, and now I feel totally rejuvenated. That coupled with my outpatient coming to a close and winter ending, great feeling. I feel like a new chapter is beginning. Especially with how it is coinciding with springtime.....life is good, fellas....
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Todays Just for Today is great. Theres nothing that humbles me more then speaking at a rehab. Its an amazing feeling to be on the other side and trying to give it back so they can all understand that they can do it. What I say is my Gods will, some might understand, others may not. But just having the opportunity to speak to them makes me feel grateful to be alive...
All pls say a prayer for a dear friend of mine, my sponsor. He lost his grandmother this week. Her funeral was yesterday he is taking this extremely hard. She is the one who raised him. He was the closest to her, and his grandfather. When he lost him, he almost went out. I do NOT want this to be his breaking point. So please pray for him and his family!! thank you!
I'm sorry, my friend, but I can't exactly hit 'Like' for that post- losing someone close is never easy. If he sticks close to his support and uses the tools of the program, he'll get through this.
Sometimes people see their sponsor as an authority figure, on a higher level than them somehow, but that's not the case. He's a guy working to stay clean and sober just like you. Be there for him.
More than once, my sponsees have bolstered me up through difficult times.
I'll say a prayer for both of you.
I spoke with him again today. He n i are goin out fishing in the am. I work midnights, so its gonna be rough on me, but at this point it isnt about me. He has always been there for me, more than once, and this is now a time he is in need and I have to be there for him. He has reached out, that is enough of a sign for me. I doubt he will fall out of the program, but in the short time I've been sober, I've seen a few people go back out that had several years of soberity.
Good for you. Service to fellow alcoholics/addicts is a cornerstone of a strong recovery.
As far as people with time going back out- I hate to say it, but sometimes, they are the beat teachers. Listen to what they say. Watch what they do.
And then do the opposite.
Some people use the excuse of a major life event as justification to go back out but, more often than not, they were already looking for a reason.
Study them, find the self-deception in their words and actions and then learn from it so you can be on guard for it in your own recovery.
Thanks it's funny when we were fishin he said I kno i dont have to go back out. I have a strong spiritual connection and a good program. I'm proud of him. This more than made me realize if he can get through this tough time, I can. I do look up to him, he is my mentor. Great man. Great friend, better sponsor than I coulda asked for!! It ended up being a great morning even tho we got caught in the rain, on a boat.....on a LAKE!! hahahaha!!!
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@bigdaddybrink1 @CDZVaper @Iamme @VapingKicksAsh @Frawg @TheWestPole @Mommay @Just Me @adk1989 @BuckFondue @DougB
Haven't seen some of ya in a bit so I thought I'd just let you know you guys stay in my prayers and I hope all is going well.
Have a truly wonderful day!
Haven't seen some of ya in a bit so I thought I'd just let you know you guys stay in my prayers and I hope all is going well.
Have a truly wonderful day!
I can certainly relate. Hope all is well and remember to take care of yourself too, ok?
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Thanks ghost62. I've been doing good, don't remember if I mentioned it but I just finished outpatient after 7 months. Now its back to the real world, lol. Time to look for a job and start looking into going back to school, maybe in the fall or this time next year, we'll see. One day at a time...
Anyways, hope you are doing good too!
Anyways, hope you are doing good too!
@bigdaddybrink1 @CDZVaper @Iamme @VapingKicksAsh @Frawg @TheWestPole @Mommay @Just Me @adk1989 @BuckFondue @DougB
Haven't seen some of ya in a bit so I thought I'd just let you know you guys stay in my prayers and I hope all is going well.
Have a truly wonderful day!
Thanks @ghost62. Maybe I need that, I don't know. Coming up on two years in a week and it seems like a new phase of recovery with new challenges. Meanwhile, in my final weeks of teaching term and a heavy load. Coming to VU strictly for distraction, which is not what this thread is about IMO.
Cheers. And congrats to you, @CDZVaper.
Congratulations!
Keep doing what's got you this far and you'll do just fine!
Two years, huh? Very, very cool. Way to go!Thanks @ghost62. Maybe I need that, I don't know. Coming up on two years in a week and it seems like a new phase of recovery with new challenges. Meanwhile, in my final weeks of teaching term and a heavy load. Coming to VU strictly for distraction, which is not what this thread is about IMO.
Cheers. And congrats to you, @CDZVaper.
I'm glad to see all you guys, of course, but anniversaries are always special. They remind me what a miracle even one day clean is.
I know you've been fighting a couple different battles over the past several months. I pray things settle down for you and resolve themselves favorably.
Just know we're thinking about you and wish you the best.
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I do appreciate it. Tonight I really need the happier thoughts.
Stuff piled up badly the last few days and my patience is at it's breaking point. Add insult to injury the one way I had of making things less stressful, the sewing machine just broke. Early estimates are it's going to cost as much as a new machine to fix - $120 for the service + $??? parts and extra labor, but it's not my machine and I was using it when it broke, which means i have to pay to repair it and then go buy myself one.
Lots of unhappy people in my future as I'm already hearing about projects not done (that others promised) and I'm up to my armpits in 'everyone else's' work.
I feel for ya. I know how frustrating that can be- my wife works as a seamstress for a company that custom makes mascots and she is constantly getting pulled off her projects to help others but then her boss turns right around and complains when her work falls behind. She used to love sewing but now, to her, it's just work...