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ghost62

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hope eludes me
Sometimes when i feel the most hopeless, it's really my Higher Power saying that He's reached out to me many, many times and now it's my turn to reach out to Him.
Life is WAY too big for me to handle on my own but when I turn my problems over and trust in my HP's Will for me, things always seem to get better.
 

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Sept 19, 1986 I'm here cause i taint all there. Some one said this in a meeting thought it was cool.



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I ride when I can. Had to let the last bike go back as it was a choice between car payment and bike payment.
Harley's are like women they come and go lol. Rode Some not any more Its a cage for me now days. Old age taint for pussy's:)
 

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Harley's are like women they come and go lol. Rode Some not any more Its a cage for me now days. Old age taint for pussy's:)
Tell me about it, woke up this morning with my back all stove up for no apparent reason. Getting old sucks. I turn 52 next month.
 

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Last night my wife asked why I keep this thread going when 'no one seems interested'
Then I reminded her of months she spent opening up the Saturday noon meeting and sitting there alone because no one showed up. Back then, if you would ask her why, she said, 'Because you never know when someone will need a meeting.'
Hearing that, she gave me a kiss, brought me a cup of coffee and then sat there smiling at me without a word...
 

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Well, for me at least, I can say that simply because I'm not commenting, doesn't mean I'm not listening ;). Kind of how I am in meetings, too. I know I get super chatty in other areas of threads, most of us are. I blow off a lot of steam, too. But... nothing says I can't do that here, as well.

As some of you may have read, I'm having issues with one of my bosses. a LOT. She was off yesterday, the higher ups were off yesterday. I'm not looking forward to going in this afternoon. Our HR rep (from home offices out of town) appeared out of nowhere Thursday and let me tell all that was going on. It's very possible I'll be getting called into yet another office today, our local GM. I can't say I'm looking forward to that discussion. Trying not to project isn't easy. MY boss seems to always win, no matter the situation. It's very frustrating. I'm not trying to win, necessarily. I'd just like to do the right thing and that could simply be seeking other employment.
 

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Well, for me at least, I can say that simply because I'm not commenting, doesn't mean I'm not listening ;). Kind of how I am in meetings, too. I know I get super chatty in other areas of threads, most of us are. I blow off a lot of steam, too. But... nothing says I can't do that here, as well.

As some of you may have read, I'm having issues with one of my bosses. a LOT. She was off yesterday, the higher ups were off yesterday. I'm not looking forward to going in this afternoon. Our HR rep (from home offices out of town) appeared out of nowhere Thursday and let me tell all that was going on. It's very possible I'll be getting called into yet another office today, our local GM. I can't say I'm looking forward to that discussion. Trying not to project isn't easy. MY boss seems to always win, no matter the situation. It's very frustrating. I'm not trying to win, necessarily. I'd just like to do the right thing and that could simply be seeking other employment.
Too true.
Coming from a professional background, I've found that management backs management until the 'problem' is no longer there and then slowly makes changes so they don't have to admit they're wrong.
I had a job back in the 90's that I loved. I was VERY good at it, won award after award, got sent on trips left and right but then ran afoul of another group's supervisor.
Unfortunately, she happened to be the best friend of our center director.
So began the witchhunt.
I left a few months later... the fallout continued for almost a year. The supervisor involved was fired. The director was transferred out. Work groups were restructured and the quota system was completely redone.
All of that could have been avoided if upper management has just taken the appropriate action in the first place.
Good luck today and I'll say a prayer for ya.
Let us know how it goes and remember, some fights aren't worth winning.
 

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Our manager doesn't do his job
He's been caught falsifying order information and was basically stealing from the company
and the district manager let him off with a slap on the hand
he only stays at the store like 3-5 hours a day
AND now I found out he's doing the same thing again to make his numbers look good
He's adding extra rooms to existing customers to make it look like we have more business.
Yesterday someone moved out and we asked the customer if he was moving out of both rooms
and the customer is like WTF I only have ONE storage unit.
There are like 6-8 fake storage rentals
How he doesn't get fired I'll never understand


Of course eventually he's going to get caught because obviously no one ever actually paid for the rooms.
Eventually he's either going to have to move out the fake rooms
or the customers are going to get a bill for a room they haven't rented.
 

ghost62

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It will catch him eventually.
Sounds like he's in pretty tight with the district manager so be careful.
Might cut your own throat.
 

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Yeah but it's part of my job to go through all the storage units every day and make sure all the locks are correct. If there is no one in the unit I am supposed to move them out. He's interfering with MY job now
 

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mr. ghost, i like the idea of this thread being here just in case i need it. i have problems airing my dirty laundry in public, so mostly i am at VU to goof and have fun. but those who know me realize that is all a facade, a diversion. i just hate getting all heavy and stuff publicly. but it's still nice to know i can if i need to. :)
 

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No news from work. GM either wasn't there, or it just wasn't a priority to him. I'll keep ya posted.
 

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Yeah but it's part of my job to go through all the storage units every day and make sure all the locks are correct. If there is no one in the unit I am supposed to move them out. He's interfering with MY job now
Is it affecting your income (Bonus? Commissions?) or just your job duties?
 

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Is it affecting your income (Bonus? Commissions?) or just your job duties?
I just don't someone to come and say "hey you weren't doing your job why didn't you notice these rooms were empty?"

on the other hand if I do make a note of it I could get him in trouble and I don't want to do that
but wtf do I do, pretend I don't see them?
 

ghost62

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I just don't someone to come and say "hey you weren't doing your job why didn't you notice these rooms were empty?"

on the other hand if I do make a note of it I could get him in trouble and I don't want to do that
but wtf do I do, pretend I don't see them?
CYA. Big Time.
If he's willing to lie about that, he will sure as heck lie about whose fault it is.
Start a detailed notebook. Take pictures or video if you can. Always include his name and why you are doing this. Keep it somewhere outside of work.
Liars, cheats, thieves will go to any length to cover themselves. You should probably do the same.
 

ghost62

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mr. ghost, i like the idea of this thread being here just in case i need it. i have problems airing my dirty laundry in public, so mostly i am at VU to goof and have fun. but those who know me realize that is all a facade, a diversion. i just hate getting all heavy and stuff publicly. but it's still nice to know i can if i need to. :)
Mr. Ghost? Seriously?
o_O
 

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I try to read every day. Of late I've been offline more than on, just taking a breather, or getting away from the drama on other parts of the internet. Avoid the internet for a few days, time to go into work and I'm now dreading the facing of the public drama - or rather what my yard will look like when I go to leave. Strong storm last night, several way too close to the house lightning strikes. Mostly I'm just stressed and not sleeping well. No particular reason, at least not that I'm actually aware of.
 

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Strange occurrence yesterday. I had a guy who just got his one year chip ask me (only 8 months sober) to sponsor him. I approached this cautiously and candidly. Apparently he heard some of my story (i had 12 years at one point) and my dedication to service work and passion for the steps of this program. He seems genuine. I am meeting with my sponsor who has 38 years to ask for input and "permission".
Thoughts?
 

ghost62

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I try to read every day. Of late I've been offline more than on, just taking a breather, or getting away from the drama on other parts of the internet. Avoid the internet for a few days, time to go into work and I'm now dreading the facing of the public drama - or rather what my yard will look like when I go to leave. Strong storm last night, several way too close to the house lightning strikes. Mostly I'm just stressed and not sleeping well. No particular reason, at least not that I'm actually aware of.
Life will be life. There will always be bad days and stress, ups and downs but the important thing is how we deal with it.
All things pass.
 

Mommay

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Ghost - You are very much appreciated for your dedication & diligence with this thread. I thank you & would truly miss you & the other peeps here, if it fell by the way. If I wore a hat, I'd tip my hat for you!

Hello, all. Sorry I've been MIA. I spent a week at my son's & have just been isolating since..... This is always a bad week for me - 8 years ago, September 9, 2006 my oldest son died from an overdose of antidepressants. I had just talked to him the night before & all was fine. Long story - sort of short.... They arrested his wife for suspicion of murder, was unable to prove it so it was eventually ruled a suicide. Even the shrink said "no way". Strange.... almost a year later, her live-in was found dead (really strange & gorey story), she was arrested again, son's case re-opened, she was released after a month or so. Then, a few months later, she was arrested AGAIN, for breaking in to current boyfriend's apartment - really bad mistake on her part - he lived on military base. She went to prison for that one! Now, she's clean & sober and raising 2 of my grandsons - one of them will be 9 years old on Sunday. WOW! I'm shaking my head just reading this. But, my laundry's out there & I'm generally an open book.

Fishee - How have you been? I'm still sending good vibes your way. I have faith that they are/will work.

Kelli - I'm so sorry that you're feeling hopeless. Check in here & let us support you & help you thru.
 

ghost62

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Strange occurrence yesterday. I had a guy who just got his one year chip ask me (only 8 months sober) to sponsor him. I approached this cautiously and candidly. Apparently he heard some of my story (i had 12 years at one point) and my dedication to service work and passion for the steps of this program. He seems genuine. I am meeting with my sponsor who has 38 years to ask for input and "permission".
Thoughts?
You've been around so you know that time in recovery doesn't necessarily equate to quality recovery.
You had a relapse, probably because you stopped using the tools that we learn early on, but your twelve years of clean time isn't wasted.
You have a lot to offer. One of the most valuable things is that you know, first-hand, what NOT to do.
Others can learn from your example hopefully because we all know that not everyone makes it back.
Talk it out, pray for guidance and then search your motives for sponsoring. Finally, trust in your HP's Will and it will work out as it is meant to.
Good luck
 

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I know I've had those times when I felt like I had nothing to offer someone when asked. Turns out I needed them. HP has a funny way of working, huh? At the very least, you both have someone to add to your support group.
 

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Wow Mommay. WOW. I'm truly sorry for your loss, too. My mom passed on the 8th, many years before then.
 

ghost62

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Ghost - You are very much appreciated for your dedication & diligence with this thread. I thank you & would truly miss you & the other peeps here, if it fell by the way. If I wore a hat, I'd tip my hat for you!

Hello, all. Sorry I've been MIA. I spent a week at my son's & have just been isolating since..... This is always a bad week for me - 8 years ago, September 9, 2006 my oldest son died from an overdose of antidepressants. I had just talked to him the night before & all was fine. Long story - sort of short.... They arrested his wife for suspicion of murder, was unable to prove it so it was eventually ruled a suicide. Even the shrink said "no way". Strange.... almost a year later, her live-in was found dead (really strange & gorey story), she was arrested again, son's case re-opened, she was released after a month or so. Then, a few months later, she was arrested AGAIN, for breaking in to current boyfriend's apartment - really bad mistake on her part - he lived on military base. She went to prison for that one! Now, she's clean & sober and raising 2 of my grandsons - one of them will be 9 years old on Sunday. WOW! I'm shaking my head just reading this. But, my laundry's out there & I'm generally an open book.

Fishee - How have you been? I'm still sending good vibes your way. I have faith that they are/will work.

Kelli - I'm so sorry that you're feeling hopeless. Check in here & let us support you & help you thru.
I'm very sorry for your loss. Even though some time has passed, it never gets easy.
We hear amazing, perplexing and, sometimes, heartbreaking stories when people share. I'm not sure how I would feel about her raising the children... I would like to think that I would be spiritual enough to tell myself that if they are happy, loved and safe, then that's all that matters. God willing, I'll never have to find out for sure.
On the plus side, it sounds like she has made some very positive changes and is trying to lead a good life.
BTW- I'm glad you're here too!
 

ghost62

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Great words of insight. Thanks. My sponsor encouraged me the same.
I am in a similar situation- with a bit of a twist.
I sponsor one of my ex-sponsors. I had 6 years in May and he just celebrated 17 years but felt that he had grown as much as he could with the sponsor he had.
We bounce things off each other all the time but I'm not the last bit hesitant when it comes to calling him on his crap.
It works out well for both of us- keeps me on my toes and keeps him from getting complacent because I can offer a different perspective.
 

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Ghost - You are very much appreciated for your dedication & diligence with this thread. I thank you & would truly miss you & the other peeps here, if it fell by the way. If I wore a hat, I'd tip my hat for you!

Hello, all. Sorry I've been MIA. I spent a week at my son's & have just been isolating since..... This is always a bad week for me - 8 years ago, September 9, 2006 my oldest son died from an overdose of antidepressants. I had just talked to him the night before & all was fine. Long story - sort of short.... They arrested his wife for suspicion of murder, was unable to prove it so it was eventually ruled a suicide. Even the shrink said "no way". Strange.... almost a year later, her live-in was found dead (really strange & gorey story), she was arrested again, son's case re-opened, she was released after a month or so. Then, a few months later, she was arrested AGAIN, for breaking in to current boyfriend's apartment - really bad mistake on her part - he lived on military base. She went to prison for that one! Now, she's clean & sober and raising 2 of my grandsons - one of them will be 9 years old on Sunday. WOW! I'm shaking my head just reading this. But, my laundry's out there & I'm generally an open book.

Fishee - How have you been? I'm still sending good vibes your way. I have faith that they are/will work.

Kelli - I'm so sorry that you're feeling hopeless. Check in here & let us support you & help you thru.

@Mommay what a grueling ordeal to go thru, i am so sorry. hopefully your DIL has really turned her life around and will do right by your grandsons. still doesn't erase the pain of your son's death, especially when it could have been her responsible. i hope you can come to some sort of peace with this, hon.

and not to worry about me. i am bipolar with the extreme rapid cycling thing, so my moods are all over the place from day to day or even hour to hour.

hugs.
 

ghost62

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@Mommay what a grueling ordeal to go thru, i am so sorry. hopefully your DIL has really turned her life around and will do right by your grandsons. still doesn't erase the pain of your son's death, especially when it could have been her responsible. i hope you can come to some sort of peace with this, hon.

and not to worry about me. i am bipolar with the extreme rapid cycling thing, so my moods are all over the place from day to day or even hour to hour.

hugs.
Grouchy, bubbly, manic or bummed, you're always welcome.
 

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Just checking in. All's well in TX. Went to hospital 2 weeks ago had a bleeding vein in intestines, couple pints blood hand full of pills out in two days. these kind of things all ways make me take a look at the the things around me . like my friends mostly in program you know what i mean. So ordered some flavors and nic yada yada yada. same game ain't changed much . My life is simple No dog no cat no wife no job lol. Any time i want a bunch of shit in my life i can all was go pick up some thing to bitch about. Right. I have a new way of living and it is good. i just have to watch what i expect of others if they are a people they will screw up in my eyes some how and surely that will piss me off. Its a lot easier for me to look at you instead of me and i still do these things and i no better.Some times its fun to be in the shit:eek: All my justifications and reasons have been removed.The truth is i believe for me i might have only child syndrome sure do think about me a lot then i make decisions from my feelings and there goes the whole ball game . Well i feel better my aa na b-day is the 19 sept 28 yrs and i still make miss takes wtf lol Sorry about my writing i just put it down like i think it. It's kinda like a cross word puzzle some times u have to read it several times before you can figure it out. Have a blessed day. Screen went BLANK.:D
 

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Glad you are doing better and very glad you're here. Thanks for sharing.
I make my share of mistakes too- comes with being human, I guess.
The closest any of us can ever get to perfect is knowing that we will never attain perfection, but keep trying anyway.
 

Mommay

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Good morning, all. Nothing at all happening here in AR. It's going to be a nice, peaceful & (maybe) productive day. Blessings.
 

ghost62

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Good morning, all. Nothing at all happening here in AR. It's going to be a nice, peaceful & (maybe) productive day. Blessings.
Sometimes 'nothing' is good and other times, nothing is good.
Today is a good kinda nothing...
 

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