I cannot help myself to smoke, as it is an embedded habit that I want to get rid of.
But as you know, with my constant posts, I always return to smoking.
I want to look back and say that was the day I quit smoking, but if I continue, there will be no post saying this.
So now I am back to disposables that will eventually die out. But if I can continue to use these, I will.
P2PLeon, I wish I could help.
I really don't think putting pressure on yourself to quit all at once, and declare yourself a nonsmoker, is working. Many who quit cigarettes by vaping had a time of dual use. For me it was about six weeks. I smoked when I wanted to, and chose vaping as often as possible instead. I tried a lot of vape flavors until I found some I loved. The combination of a good, reliable device, supplies for re-charging, refilling, etc., backups for the backups, and a flavor you LOVE, will let vaping take over.
That said, I still had to endure a really hard quit day. Even though I'd been vaping more and more, smoking less and less, the body doesn't trust nic from vaping as it does from the old cigarette standby, which has additives that make it more addictive. There is a difficult withdrawal, but after that quit day I had no more trouble with cigarette cravings. Some people do have to fight cravings after their quit day.
Just don't give up. A new day will come when your resolve returns. If you want to quit cigarettes, I believe there is a successful path for you.