Morley now that we are best of buds you can screw with me and I will understand your joking! I have a very thick skin but sometimes it is like a pin and a balloon, just a little prick makes it pop!
Ah, good to know that my wife is correct what she says that our younger cat kid says then. Told her that he would come to me and say "pap". She just laughed, "you really need to catoneese better. He's calling you prick, not pap." I never would have thought, but I did consult with my dog Thistle. Thistle said, "yup, why do ya think I don't like him coming round me too much, calls you a prick and eats up all my food." Kind of figured though too,he understands I'm the 'prick' that feeds him.
Can understand how it goes. Yesterday was bad for me. I apparently break stuff on purpose and then don't tell anyone about, knowing I've broken it. That to me seemed fully counter productive but it was what I was accused of doing. Sometimes douches need to be douches for whatever reason their puny little douche minds can make up. I ought to have saw it as merely that. Instead it ticked me off enough to not want bother contributing in doing stuff keeping my family safe.
Spoke to wife about and come up with a solution. I'll only use my tools and equipment, not any there for family use, despite the ones for family use possibly being better suited. If that means I do less or not as a good job it doesn't matter because at least I won't be accused of fouling things up for them. They'll only then be able to suggest I'm not doing up to my potential, maybe? Well, they will need to accept what is my capacity and appreciate it or not, if not then yes I'll stop doing. Not like my wife doesn't pay half her annual earnings to support them anyway. I know she and I could live on half what she doles for them. I think we both do quite enough to pitch in and help out. There is more than mowing I do.
Edit: Just to clarify, if I were competent enough to locate and secure work outside the home I would do it in a heart beat. As it is I feel diminished in my capability to maintain a normal 160% given that I once held capability to do. There are various factors which amalgamate to help diminish that capability. Yes, I'm only 44 this year and rightly so, could be called young. Sometimes it is not the years but miles and how the miles are run that add up on the person.
I put, or had put on me, hard run miles when younger and did also find myself playing as hard. And then I am seeing 'times' change and in our new time, seems a lot of douche, lots of stupid are fashionable. I can't tolerate from peers, much less supervisor types. Seen it in both, and it destroys me mentally, emotionally, adding undue stress and drama. Ultimately I get knocked down to doing at best 70-80% and for me that's not good enough. Ergo, I do what I can to help my homestead, try different things I have some talent to do, hope for the best.
So, it's not me copping out per say, shirking anything. I do what I can and do the best I can, last I checked that's all that was expected.
. Still it was a good thing because I only smoked 2 times since and it was regretably nasty to my taste buds and the awful taste and smell lingered even after brushing and washing up. 
