I was that way for a long time. Unfortunately it got to a point where being employed and keeping my family because more important than avoiding meds for the mood disorder.
The back issues demand medicines just to be able to do what amount of movement I am able to, otherwise I'd be complete bedridden and I'm not sure I could handle that at all...
The other meds are for my migraines and seizures and when I started taking them I was counting the number of days each month that I did NOT have a migraine. They were debilitating and extremely painful without the meds and it took 2 years to get me down to the 4 to 8 a month that I have now.
I hate taking meds, especially since I am up to a dozen of them when you include the couple that I take as needed and it makes me sick but I have accepted the fact that I have to take them or cease being functional and aware of what is going on around me