Aw cuteTuxie sleeps on my husband's bed, but usually on the weekends, she meets me at my door when I come out in the morning, raring to go outside... but this morning, she stayed in there on the bed with him, till I called her.She luvs her daddy.
Andria
Go Fuck You
I'm confused, doesn't that make it Burden in Your Head??
Awww.....beautiful cat Andria!!
Morning Andria, hope you are good
Tea......................
HEY there!
Hey Juice. Wondered when you'd be back! This place has been dead as shit since you left!!! So WELCOME BACK!!!
Lose all your money??
Andria
I gambled exactly $1 and won exactly no dollars
Vaped pretty much everywhere - even if it wasn't allowed
Excellent hand checks to come once I get home
Missed you guys
And no Bob, haven't desecrated my CVs yet, lol. Brought two on this trip and they have performed flawlessly - as I knew they would
Great travel squonkers
I never realise it's morning, was dinner when I sent that! Keep forgetting your oversea!Think so, but not awake enough to say for sure.
Andria
Moose milk?? Are you on about actual milk or a liquid lmfao
it is a FW Flavoring.
But more to come today. The "kid" (who's actually 29, but will always be "my kid") will be home, 2 wks from tomorrow, so I'm motivated. Even though when my husband told him on the phone last night that I'd been doing housework all day, I could hear his "WHAT?" all the way across the room. He knows me too well.
To be fair, it was really my mom who was excluding drunkenness and drug abuse from me, but it's hard to get a child to understand such things. Then it was his ex-wife (his third) who hated me, and that feeling was quite mutual.... He was very excited to call me up and tell me he'd finally gotten rid of her. I was glad to have him back for a few years, after he and I had both gotten sober and turned into semi-rational adults. Then the damn lung cancer had to go and spoil it all. I'm quitting beer too, for a treatment I'm over going but also cos I have an addictive personalityI recall the awkwardness of seeing my father after several decades of NOT.... "So, how's your life been, since you excluded me from it?"
Andria
I've put my family through alot with my drugs an alcoholic use so I relate!I like experimenting so ill try it
I'm quitting beer too, for a treatment I'm over going but also cos I have an addictive personality
Gambling has never been for me but because of my personality I'd definitely get addicted! I was on too many things to take up something else & I'm only just getting off booze. If my health was fine I'd be carrying on!
I'm glad you have found someone you love & makes you happy and I'm sorry growing up wasn't so easy for you. My Mom always tried to help but I just pushed her out. I didn't make it easy for my family at all. But you get the support you need off your husband right?? That's gotta count for something...I've suffered that depression/anxiety spectrum since I was a little child -- I can remember when I was in single-digits, being unable to sleep, because I couldn't "turn off my brain".... and feeling lacking, broken, somehow -- my mom's idea of the best way to raise an idealistic, intelligent child was to poke holes in all her balloons and call it "being a devil's advocate." I was glad I finally had a chance to tell her, a couple years ago, that I had never NEEDED a devil's advocate, I'd needed SUPPORT, emotional support, which she NEVER gave me. When I met and started falling in love with my 2nd husband, with whom I'm soon to celebrate our 30th anniversary, I had to keep asking him "Are you SURE you love me?" Because he never hurt me in any way; not physically, not emotionally, not at all.... and all that time I'd thought that being loved meant that the person who said they loved me would continually hurt me. Which explains why my first really serious BF beat me, and my first husband abused me emotionally in every possible way -- in fact, when we were breaking up, he had the nerve to tell me "You may GET another man, but you'll never be able to KEEP him!"..... As you might imagine, I DELIGHT in informing him every year of our anniversary -- he's now been married THREE times, and divorced three times.... so I guess that was a little projection, wasn't it?!?
They say the best revenge is living well. I agree, but I would add.... "SURVIVING those who try to tear you down, and living well while they're still scrabbling to figure out why they're NOT living well."
Andria
Morning fugee's
Well,tropical storm cindy is gone! Lost house phone and internet for a while because of her. Lots of rain but I didnt flood this time
Hope yall doin good!
And of course my kitty baby is DELIGHTED. They're saying we might get more rain tomorrow so I'll be happy for the sun today!!!
Been busy spanking my monkey...I mean monkeying with my Spanky. I do believe I shall have to take Sonar up on his offer of upgrading to a sled. The battery contacts are a bit iffy on it right now. Seems to only really contact one instead of both without a lot of finagling.
I've figured out what makes the Achilles so much easier to mount; the screws are actually larger, and a bit further apart, though it's otherwise identical with the leads pointing in opposite directions, wrap around the screws and tighten down -- the Achilles is MUCH easier.
I'm really glad you are happier now & have someone to share your life withNothing emotional comes easy to him, he's had to learn, but yeah, he's even stood up to my parents over how they've continued to treat me, even in adulthood, and that means the world to me. I truly couldn't live without that man, and wouldn't even want to; he's the first and only person who's ever "gotten" me, and the only one who ever cared to try! He's a recovering alkie/addict too, so that's a major reason why I rarely go to meetings, at least for the last 10-15 yrs or so; having him around, it's like we both have a 24/7 meeting, to let each other know when "those desires" rear their nasty heads, and be able to talk it out in complete empathy and understanding and lack of judgment.
Learning to trust after it's broken is indeed very hard, and that was one hurdle I had to get over, in my last major bout of depression, anxiety, and that awful PTSD; I took Effexor for a while, but we were fortunate to also have a very good therapist, who helped both of us quite a lot. As much as I hate how BP plasters the airwaves with all their toxic nostrums, when depression/anxiety gets to the point where it's seriously affecting your life, or making you think stupid shit like suicide is actually a rational action, SSRIs are a godsend -- but they need to be accompanied by insightful therapy, to be really helpful -- staying on any medication like that for life is not a good option; at some point, one has to learn the coping skills that render medication like that unnecessary. It's been about 9 yrs since I got off it, and there have been some REALLY rough times in those years, but so far, so good.
Andria
Time for tea....
