*Fades into being on the porch out of thin air, steps in, locates
@SteveS45, gives him a big warm friendly hug and steps off back out onto the porch to sit nursing a mug of hot grog*
"Love you, Dude, and thanks as well."
Before you ask, simply being you. You accept without forcing you on anyone. Seen you do it time and time again. Also seen you got a few clear lines, everyone does and has to have. I know with s**t up, you put not.
I've been radiating more darkness than I care to admit. To your credit as a friend, you did not come barging in on me. Talking about it now. Yes, limiting the conversation. All that negativity is being tossed away, incinerated. Nobody needs that crap.
Had a serious talk with my wife about a dream. Quite a while ago, she told me something.
"You wake up writing, fall asleep writing, dream of writing. Damn it, you're a writer! Go write, I'll wait."
Well, let it suffice, I have been ringing a bell on myself. Any excuse suited, just don't write. Our most recent conversation involved me asking if she was serious in what she told me. Her reply was simply to ask me if I was serious.
Yes, I'm still going to look for a full time job. I am also going to work progressively on a goal. Need to get back into writing at least 2,000 words per day for a story. If not a solid 2K for one story at least a good five to six hours of writing, something, not social based but for "work".
I have to be serious and hold to my faith. Too many to let down otherwise. I know for sure, "Spanky" would be fussing at me.
"You've got that potential. Soldier, aim that rifle higher. Push you to be better than you."
No more arguing, no more excuses. Can see now how foolish, weak I have been. Am I going to worry over editing? No. Wife suggests beta readers. For now, not concerned. Everything will come to be as need arises. I'll get to writing again, start finishing stories, or "works". Then, do revision, put it on market and go back to writing. "Wash, rinse, repeat."
Not worrying on marketing either. The "product" will sell itself. I'll just keep busy "producing".