Slow here
Sincere apologies. Seems better I not say anything to anyone lately. When people get shocked, sad, meritless confrontations, unwarranted laughter, needless misunderstandings from others, ... makes it difficult finding anything to even attempt saying. Yes, do apologize and will return to reticence.
Better to say, do nothing than have to wonder what is wrong with you when you know nothing is. I'm the same I was two weeks ago to two days, to yesterday ago. Gotten real clear, real quick the world inclusive of my wife have decided it best I change to suit some arbitrary mold. Recall twenty years ago me & wife agreed we would not ever ask for the other to change.
Yes, we each grow and change as life is wont to do for folks. Our core selves we're not changing. That's what I'm discussing here.
That isn't saying I don't try my best, do my best for her. I do in everything. She's my wife and deserves no less. Seems there's been a change somewhere along the way, now that isn't enough & I'm left to guess what hoops I need to go through, who's hoops, why there? So yes, far better to not say or do anything and face all kinds of trouble. Can only be myself after all. People don't like that, well, they can go whatever with whoever I reckon.
*shrugs*
Not that I don't care, I do. I'm just tired of being hurt by caring. Sometimes the only way left to care is to let go.
Then again, maybe I'm deluded and seeing everything wrong. I have no clue. Can only say it seems everything has flipped upside down of late. What else am I to feel but concern? Again, ... *shrugs*
How did I come to get so deluded?
Is it something in Milo's sweet tea, in the food, air?
Can I be detoxified?
Are operators standing by?
Sorry if I'm joking and seeming to detract or deflect from something serious. It is my inborn coping mechanism/ability, to laugh instead of going mad. The seeming joking questions above can all be read and taken quite seriously. If I do need serious help then by damn seriously point me to the help I need.
Don't suggest drinking or drugs. I know neither work to do what one expects. You sober up and the shit you were running from is still there. I'm not a runner in that sense anyway.