I am awake too early. In so far as aware, only work at Gabe's today. Decided I am not taking further assignments at PHS.
It is pretty rough when the person acting as supervisor creates a hostile work environment. They had me in tears, filled with rage, doubt, sadness one night, over a simple mistake on my part. I was even contemplative.
That, I had earlier in home life. I do not need such in my life anymore so, at all, especially not in a seeming professional work environment. So, no, I'll not take further work at PHS.
Going to be keeping alert for material handling work. Will continue substituting for school custodian, until I attain full time in it, or a material handling spot comes up full time. Do not mind the custodial work, work is work, for me. I always do it the best I can, yes, inclusive of self-appointed work.
The people are what cause me any issue. Thought by following wife's "rules", that would clear up. Ha. Guess again. Her rules:
1. Show up.
2. Shut up. Recall, "not my circus, 'follow the example'."
3. Do the assigned work/task the best able. All any can do is their best.
4. Go home after shift end.
5. Get paid.
6. "Wash, rinse, repeat."
No real joy lost, though, in PHS. It's just a school I'll not work in, again. There are other schools. There is even other work, in other fields.
At Gabe's the consensus seems to be I could get more than 20 hours a week, for the asking. Granted, it doesn't pay as well as the custodial for schools, or even other material handling work. A lot can be said for the value of it being a nicer place to work, though.
At any given, thinking I'll return to my more reticent self here. Nothing is really wrong. I have a bit to process privately, and yes, think it can remain private. Sorry, anhedonia leaves me with little desire anymore, betwixt that and trying to keep working, ... well, ... there you are.