Work Woes
Facing trouble at work. I am told I must do 12–16 hours of work in only 8. I have attempted doing so the way I usually have done, to no avail. Made attempts doing it the way the head custodian suggests, found his way has benefits and can seem to work.
Still, last night, I finished at about 11 instead of 10, On top of that one of the kindergarten teachers is saying I've not been sweeping and mopping their floor, despite I know I have.
It seems, no matter how good my effort, I'm not getting accurate work done in allotted time. The head custodian says my speed will improve in doing. Still, I'm pressured to be quick enough now, and rightly so. They need the work done, accurately, consistently in allotted time, now.
Can hear my head custodian asking, "walking away from what can be a lucrative career?" I can only respond to that with a question, how lucrative can it be if I'm incapable of doing it? The school and school board deserves their money in that I ought to be capable to do it.
"It" just isn't "happening" for me, and I have no explanation as to why it isn't. I am not lollygagging at the work, not slacking. I for the most part barely talk to anyone, eat lunch alone, keep my mind on the work only. "It" just isn't "there". Wish I knew why, or how to correct, but I'm at a loss.
Have I bitten off more than I can chew? I don't think so, yet that's the way it seems.
Time to resign? I don't want to leave a good job. Still, I'm not seeing any other options. Toughing out best I can, but it isn't all my call either.
Been there over a month. I ought to "have it", still eluding me.